Humbled by my First Half Marathon

My first half marathon was an interesting experience. While I am a full time athlete and in great shape, I had not run 20km. The farthest I had run was 10km prior to signing up for my first race. I was determined to finish. However, I am on a strict training schedule and spent a large chuck of my summer travelling. On top of this, mid summer I was suffering from shin tears in both legs. By october I was back to normal but not ready to run a half marathon.

My main motivation for this race was my mother. She had signed up for her first 10km and I had provided her with an eight week training program. In the face of my injury I wasn’t about to leave my mom alone on race day. I was not willing to pull out of the race. I was also determined to finish the race no matter how long it took.

As an athlete I’m used to being above average at physical activity. This made my race a different and difficult experience. I had women over twice my age passing me and finishing long before I crossed the line. It was extremely humbling. I wouldn’t change this experience because it took a lot of mental toughness to finish that race.

I will absolutely be doing the same race again next year. I’m not going to train any differently but I’m hoping with a healthy body and a new mindset I’ll be able to shave some time.

Only time will tell.



Goal Digging – Goal Crushing

I’ve always been a goal setter. From a young age I’ve had a box above my bed that’s full of cut up paper each with a goal on it. Some of these goals I’ve achieved, some I never will and some are still in the works. Some would argue I should remove the completely unrealistic goals to make room for easier more attainable ones but I’m a believer in

“Shoot for the moon and even if you miss you’ll land among the stars”

These imposible goals remind me that I once thought I could go to the moon or be on the Ellen Show. They remind me to never dull down my goals to make them more achievable. Don’t get me wrong, there is nothing more satisfying than setting your goal  to bench press 75kg by the end of the year and doing 80kg by the end of the month. It felt great but also reminded me to be more ambitious.

It’s scary to publish your goals. It’s safe to keep them to yourself so nobody will know you failed. Just imagine if you didn’t fail, all those people you were afraid to tell would be there to cheer you on! Time to set out of your comfort zone and talk about your goals! Maybe that’s goal #1 just tell someone your goal.

With all that said, here are my 16 goals for 2016!

  1. Bench Press 90kg – January 2017
  2. Read 10 books – December 2016
  3. Make this blog public – March 2016
  4. Get GosSUP girls up and running – March 2016
  5. Gratitude journal daily
  6. Reunite with my love of luon – September 2016
  7. Compete at the 2016 U23 World Championships – July 2016
  8. Love my weight
  9. Go back to school – September 2016
  10. 2 hour Half marathon – October 2016
  11. Move in with my fav. human
  12. write
  13. Yoga 5 times a week
  14. 5.30 1500m run – October 2016
  15. Be a plant-mom to a succulent – August 2016
  16. Buy my first car – December 2016

I find value in giving my goals a timeline. If I beat it, great! If I’m a month off, thats ok too. I just need something to light a fire under my butt so I’m not sitting on my computer on New Years Day with a champagne hangover reading this post and wondering why I didm’t achieve any of my goals. Some of my goals are action oriented while some are a frame of mind.

As I achieve or adjust my goals I will update this page. I will also be posting goal setting exercise that I have found helpful. Goal setting can happen any time of year, not just on January 1st. It’s not all about “new year, new me” sometimes it’s just about taking a leap.


Guilt Free Waffles

Waffles are something I am very passionate about, brunch is important. As an athlete I can’t always indulge in a full blown brunch extravaganza. These waffles were a life saver on my sugar free detox. They are so satisfying and in a blind taste test I would choose these over any other waffle!

Banana Pecan Waffles – Vegan + Refined Sugar-free

1 cup mashed banana
1 3/4 cups unsweetened vanilla almond milk (room temperature, not cold)
1/2 cup coconut oil, melted
1tbsp Pure maple syrup
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
2 cups All purpose flour
1 1/2 tablespoons baking powder
1/4 teaspoon sea salt
1/2 teaspoon ground nutmeg
1/2 cup roughly chopped unsalted pecans

Preheat your waffle iron, you don’t want to have batter ready to go while you impatiently wait for your iron to heat up.
In a large bowl, whisk the banana, almond milk and coconut oil. You’ll notice the importance of the room temperature almond milk at this point. If it’s too cold the oil will solidify and you’ll have chunks. Add the maple syrup and vanilla and give it a good whisk.
To the mixture you can add the flour, baking powder, sea salt and nutmeg. Fold in the pecans and allow the batter to sit for a few minutes.
Using about 1/2  cup of batter (depending on your waffle iron) cover the bottom layer of the waffle iron. Once the waffle rises it will fill the iron! Any more batter and it will run down the sides. Baking time is approximately 5 minutes.

These are a perfect guilt free brunch! I hope you enjoy.


When you Have a Bad Year

2015 was not my year. That sounds negative and untrue but if you look at the timeline of my year you’ll agree. I’m not saying it was the worst year of all time or anything close to it. It just was not a great year for me.

I began 2015 with illness. I was bed ridden for two weeks, following that I left for a training camp. I didn’t have time to fully recover. After that things didn’t go my way, I got an infection from a freak waffle accident, tears in my shins, and I rounded out the perfect year with a severe back injury. To say I was ready for 2016 would be an understatement. This is part of the reason I began my attitude shift, you can read about my quest for bliss here. What triggered this was my frustration with the assumption that as soon as I was healthy I needed to brace myself for my next injury or illness. I needed to adjust my thought process and enter 2016 without a jaded outlook on life. I not only needed to improve my relationship with myself but my relationship with those around me. I needed to make time for my boyfriend, best friend and my mom. It’s important to me to maintain these relationships while also taking time to better myself.

With a month of 2016 almost under my belt I am extremely optimistic about what my 21st year will hold. I’ve seen what I can do sick and injured. I ran my first half marathon, I placed 4th in the world in canoeing, I worked two jobs and I’ve stayed in love. There’s no telling what my best me is capable of.

Only time will tell.



Attitude vs. Gratitude

“It is not happy people who are grateful but it is grateful people who are happy”

I didn’t make resolutions this year aside from, meditate more… which is vague. I have however been working with a professional in the Sports Psychology field. He has me getting to know myself on a deeper level as I take a closer look at the small things in my life each day that make me happy. So as the first month of 2016 comes to an end, a new resolution has formed. Each night in my adorable Kate Spade notebook I write three things I’m thankful for, I read them in the morning and I’m off to a great start to the day.

This sounds easy but I have challenged myself to have no repeats for as long as possible. I am currently on day eleven and I have noticed it is more difficult to think of amazing things to be grateful for. Of course the first few days were, my family, my amazing boyfriend, my cats, a warm bed etc. Now I find I’m reaching because I jus
t want to go to sleep. For example, day ten consisted of,

  1. Mornings with Shaun
  2. Pizza
  3. Crepes

Mornings with Shaun is a great one because we had a few
extra minutes in our warm flannel bed to cuddle and it was lovely. That leaves us with pizza and crepes, which admittedly I am thankful for. It just doesn’t make for a well rounded list. I went to bed on day ten feeling like I had failed at finding in depth reasons to be happy. It wasn’t until at 6:00am the next morning when I rolled out of bed in desperate need for an IV of coffee that I read them and laughed. This brought to life the whole reason for the exercise. It isn’t to become a robot who is thankful for cookie-cutter things. It is to find what makes you happy and celebrate it each day.

On the quest to find my bliss writing “crepes” as something I’m thankful for might just be the key to happiness. Maybe I need to make more time for crepes.

Only time will tell.

Caffeine and a Dream

I am an athlete with my eyes set on the 2020 Olympic games. I am based in Canada where I am on the National team for Canoe/Kayak. This dream is fuelled by coffee and accompanied by a sugar addiction. Aside from my identity as an athlete I am also a foodie, bookworm, writer, and proud cat lover. I live by the ocean and spend most of my time on, in or beside water.

While I will include my travels brought to you by canoeing on an international level I will also include, recipes, workout information and the occasional update on my Olympic quest. I hope to relate to you as both an athlete, fitness lover and cupcake connoisseur.